it's always there…

no matter how hard you try. how much you gnaw and tear.

it doesn't get any easier.

time is a bitch.

maybe you think you know what the right decision is, now.

but…

you can't…

ever…

GO FUCKING BACK.

YOU CAN'T EVER GO BACK.

…it'll never be the same.

you'll never not know.

you'll never forget what it feels like.

GOD you wish you could.

it'll never leave your mind.

it's a parasite that's part of you now.

you know how to get rid of it.

yeah, you do.

fucking hate this shit.

you don't wanna do this anymore.

you wish it would all just stop.

just…

but it doesn't stop.

it'll never stop.